-mechanical- [the fascination is mechanical]

limbs awash with heaviness,
you swing them out of bed,
run through the morning route,
no need to think,
it's all programmed inside your head.

na? gomen, it's midnight now and i guess i'm getting tired so, i'm half running on 'auto-pilot'and that's what started the whole 'mechanical' thing. it has been a constant wonder, how many people are actually running like this everday...[no reason, i'm just weird, that's all.. ^^] i think i remember days like that. and when i say remember, what i mean is i can conjure up an image of almost nothing much at all. days like these draw up a blank, just mundane actions like sitting up in bed or something. that's how little they mean. i won't waste it all on mechanical days.
sa! enough of that... i can't believe i'm encountering writer's block here as well as in that darned fic! >_< i.will.not.sleep. until i get this done, that is. well, what more is there to say? the 'holiday' week is almost over i don't feel like i've accomplished much [and i hate that feeling] been swaying between feeling totally lost and spinning among the sujects i study and being too lethrgic to bother. it's driving me nuts really. i.will.stop.saying.this.is.the.most.stressfull.year. ...gotta love the 'full-stop' ^^ so usefull. right, since i think i've wasted the title.. lol..i might as well stop here. oyasumi and have a better week next week. ^^ ja ne!

butterfly trail - spin, twirl, flit up and down
why butterfly? well, i was thinking of a rollercoaster really but it doesn't seem appropriate since my life isn't exactly going at a fast pace right now... and about that, well, i heard this quote once that said life is like a roller coaster with all the ups and downs [but then, where do you fit in the 'slow' moments? ;p] so yeah, to some extent that's true. only, my version of 'ups' and 'downs' at the moment is really on the small scale [it's even a little embarrasing..lol] like, i classify 'ups' as things that make me happy..i dunno..like managing to download a song i wanted, chatting for hours with friends? heheh..sorry, guys, if i talk your ears off.. ;p
anyway, long time no see to this blog... you miss typing here after a while..heh
so for the latest on what's been happening, let's see, random events in no particular order, i watched '50 First Dates' with my family yesterday [yes, again for me..^^] love that movie.. and went to Taylors College in the morning for their 'Career Assesment' day. It was mostly talks..you go into either lecture hall 1 or 2 depending on what you want to hear and let the lecture begin! eheh..biotech was interesting but i wonder if i actually have the capacity to do anything bout it... o_0
screwed up the second part of my literature exam last Friday i don't know what i was thinking..and it was the poems part! *sigh* obviously, that needs work too.. woops! i can't finish this post..my dad's calling [have to help make breakfast and this is why i don't like going online during the weekends : parents] ja!

no time to say 'hello-goodbye' i'm late i'm late i'm late!
no, i'm not really late but yes, there's 'no time' as everyone keeps telling me. sigh...no time no time. i should've counted how many times i heard that said. i know, that big exam is going to be my funeral..i only hope it's decent..but, well, the way all adults go on about it is like, it literally is going to be my funeral. geez...
well, anyway, so much for my rejoicing Fridays so quickly. this month, Homelife is to be held at my house again. tonight, i 'escape' by going off to the 'Satay Night' for young adults [thought technically and mentally, i'm not a young adult] but next week? *sigh* i'll have to think up something real good. this means of course that i won't be online tonight and there goes lotsa things i wanted to do.
right, anyway, wanna wish a happy belated birthday to weevern whose b'day was on the 3rd. this shall serve as a reminder on later years [if i ever do re-read my blog! lol]
random stuff :
-wrote a lousy rushed essay and didn't pass it up today-
-moaned/laughed bout HP3-
-found out truly how much i kno of english lit-
-bitterly regrets the lack of good reading material-
-*goes on sugar rampage*-

o-kay, that's enough crap... better get to using what 'time' i have more effectively..lol..ja!